A jaw surgery chat site/support group I subscribe to is all a-twitter becuase someone dared ask about how soon after surgery you can have (looks around furtitively) oral sex.
Gasp!
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Freedom! Terrible freedom!
My braces came off today! Huzzah!
My doc doesn't do it in house; he's does it off-shore over at the hospital. Not sure it saves anybody any money, but I don't care. I'm all for being *completely* sedated during the process. I hated having packing pulled out of my nose following my brain surgery, I despise it when they shove that fiber optic camera down my nose tot check out my airways, and really, the thought of getting to live through the sensation of them pulling WIRE out of my FACE was just too much. Hells no.
The proceedure only took about 25 minutes, if I understand correctly. However, you still have to go and register at the hospital, wait your turn, then get dressed and prepped and go through all the nurses, then wait for a room to open -- yeah, we got to the hospital about 1010, and didn't leave until after 2pm. Oh well.
Wasn't mentally prepared for the whole pre-op thing. I'd had a very different expectation in my head about how they were going to do it and I kind of lost my shit a bit at the hospital. All of the prep was basically the same as, oh, say, BRAIN SURGERY and full-on JAW SURGERY, and I had been picturing something more along the lines of staying in my regular clothes, getting an IV, and leaning back in some glorified dentist chair with my doc and an assistant - possibly two - at his side. Brought up a lot of stuff for me, you might imagine.
Once I had a little time to cool my heels I calmed down and got into the correct mindset. I was still a bit tensde (ok, a lot) when I got my IV, but the anesthesiologist (sp?) was very understanding. In fact, it turns out he remembered me from the actual jaw surgery. Small hospital. (Joke. Stanford.) I didn't have general anesthesia; I got something called a 'conscious sedative'. Don't care what it was called -- it still knocked me out cold. I remember getting over onto the table and then BAM! Gone. Totally fine by me. I think I actually fell asleep on top of it, because I was out much longer than advertised in the recovery room. Tee. :)
Got some novocane (sp?) during the surgery too. I'm more numb following this proceedure that I have been at any other point over the last 5 weeks. Can't really tell a difference in my lower lip/chin, but there was so much injected into the top jaw that the tip of my nose went numb. Still don't really have any feeling up there yet -- and its after 10pm!! Its also really throwing of my food/beverage consumption skills; I'd gotten pretty handy at eating with baby spoons and drinking from a glass -- I totally had to revert back to the feeding bags because stuff was just running/falling out of my mouth. Very not pretty.
Its of course fanTAStic to have all of that metal out of my mouth. The achey is already noticibly less (Although that may be the novocane...) I also don't have those bands blocking my tongue anymore, AND the band that crossed my front teeth (pix to follow at some point) no longer slips out of place constantly to ride on my gums painfully. A-MEN, sister! But its funny what you get used to. Even with the bands gone, I still totally favor the side of my mouth I had to eat/dringk fro with them in. And I've noticed my tongue is still searching out the front band to push it off of the gums and back onto the tooth. Wonder how long it'll take for all of that to stop?
Oh, I got more xrays taken today pre-proceedure as well today, too. Everything is still looking good, and my airway looks GREAT! It looks even wider that it did in the last xray. Doc says that's because its had more time to heal and a lot of normal post-surgery swelling has gone down. Its kind of ironic because my sleep has been for SHIT this last week and a half, and I've definitely noticed the sensation that air was no way going through as smoothly as it had immediately post surgery. I had him take a look and sure enough, my tonsils are trying to take over my skull again and are blocking my airway. Looking more and more like those'll have to come out in the future. Dammit.
Doc also removed a little scar tissuue up around the incision line above my front teeth, Not a big deal - some stuff had built up around the stitches (not infected or anything) but it was making that area very painful if it was ever stretched. So when he yanked out of the (poorly) dissolving stitches today he did some clean up and expects that it will all heal nicely now. Again, thank god for 'conscious sedation'.
Oh, and I get to start working on Real Food in about 3 weeks. Joy!
Over all, it was a Good Day. :)
My doc doesn't do it in house; he's does it off-shore over at the hospital. Not sure it saves anybody any money, but I don't care. I'm all for being *completely* sedated during the process. I hated having packing pulled out of my nose following my brain surgery, I despise it when they shove that fiber optic camera down my nose tot check out my airways, and really, the thought of getting to live through the sensation of them pulling WIRE out of my FACE was just too much. Hells no.
The proceedure only took about 25 minutes, if I understand correctly. However, you still have to go and register at the hospital, wait your turn, then get dressed and prepped and go through all the nurses, then wait for a room to open -- yeah, we got to the hospital about 1010, and didn't leave until after 2pm. Oh well.
Wasn't mentally prepared for the whole pre-op thing. I'd had a very different expectation in my head about how they were going to do it and I kind of lost my shit a bit at the hospital. All of the prep was basically the same as, oh, say, BRAIN SURGERY and full-on JAW SURGERY, and I had been picturing something more along the lines of staying in my regular clothes, getting an IV, and leaning back in some glorified dentist chair with my doc and an assistant - possibly two - at his side. Brought up a lot of stuff for me, you might imagine.
Once I had a little time to cool my heels I calmed down and got into the correct mindset. I was still a bit tensde (ok, a lot) when I got my IV, but the anesthesiologist (sp?) was very understanding. In fact, it turns out he remembered me from the actual jaw surgery. Small hospital. (Joke. Stanford.) I didn't have general anesthesia; I got something called a 'conscious sedative'. Don't care what it was called -- it still knocked me out cold. I remember getting over onto the table and then BAM! Gone. Totally fine by me. I think I actually fell asleep on top of it, because I was out much longer than advertised in the recovery room. Tee. :)
Got some novocane (sp?) during the surgery too. I'm more numb following this proceedure that I have been at any other point over the last 5 weeks. Can't really tell a difference in my lower lip/chin, but there was so much injected into the top jaw that the tip of my nose went numb. Still don't really have any feeling up there yet -- and its after 10pm!! Its also really throwing of my food/beverage consumption skills; I'd gotten pretty handy at eating with baby spoons and drinking from a glass -- I totally had to revert back to the feeding bags because stuff was just running/falling out of my mouth. Very not pretty.
Its of course fanTAStic to have all of that metal out of my mouth. The achey is already noticibly less (Although that may be the novocane...) I also don't have those bands blocking my tongue anymore, AND the band that crossed my front teeth (pix to follow at some point) no longer slips out of place constantly to ride on my gums painfully. A-MEN, sister! But its funny what you get used to. Even with the bands gone, I still totally favor the side of my mouth I had to eat/dringk fro with them in. And I've noticed my tongue is still searching out the front band to push it off of the gums and back onto the tooth. Wonder how long it'll take for all of that to stop?
Oh, I got more xrays taken today pre-proceedure as well today, too. Everything is still looking good, and my airway looks GREAT! It looks even wider that it did in the last xray. Doc says that's because its had more time to heal and a lot of normal post-surgery swelling has gone down. Its kind of ironic because my sleep has been for SHIT this last week and a half, and I've definitely noticed the sensation that air was no way going through as smoothly as it had immediately post surgery. I had him take a look and sure enough, my tonsils are trying to take over my skull again and are blocking my airway. Looking more and more like those'll have to come out in the future. Dammit.
Doc also removed a little scar tissuue up around the incision line above my front teeth, Not a big deal - some stuff had built up around the stitches (not infected or anything) but it was making that area very painful if it was ever stretched. So when he yanked out of the (poorly) dissolving stitches today he did some clean up and expects that it will all heal nicely now. Again, thank god for 'conscious sedation'.
Oh, and I get to start working on Real Food in about 3 weeks. Joy!
Over all, it was a Good Day. :)
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Was it Worth it?
If you're reading this blog, its with a high chance that you are either going through recovery from a similar surgery or considering putting yourself under the knife. I'm sure this is not the first blog you've read - if you're anything like me, that is, and need to have enough information as possible before you make any decisions. So I'm sure you've stumbled across the declaration "It was worth it!" many a time.
I'm going to jump on the bandwagon with this one: It *was* worth it.
Has it been easy? Hell, no! Has it SUCKED BALLS more than once? Hell yes! Were there times when I *did* regret doing it? Definitely. Was I/am I still kind of angry with fate that I had to go through it? You betcha. Is it lots of fun having your appearance change? No, I can't really say it is.
But.
I know I still have much more healing to go through, as well as more frustrations, and probably a few more crying jags to boot. But after only a month, I can sleep fully reclined in a bed. I can sleep without having to be propped up on pillows (which I was doing even before the surgery.) I do still wake up tired, but nothing like I used to. I dont have to go to sleep at 9pm anymore because I just can't stay awake. I don't have to take a 3 hour nap at 2 in the afternoon because otherwise I will be useless all day. I don't wake up with the CPAP hose wrapped around my neck anymore. I don't have to go through the ritual of medications and setting up the machine, and taping my mouth shut, and being woken up in the middle of the night by leaky masks. I may not be 100% fixed, but there's a freedom there that I didn't have before. At the very least, I feel less broken than everyone else just having to use that damned machine.
Husband came up to me the other morning. "I couldn't hear you breathing," he said. "I sat up in bed and actually leaned over because even before the CPAP, your breath always struggled. Now I could barely hear it!"
Was it worth it? A thousand times yes -- with the small exceptions where I am PMSing, of course.
I'm going to jump on the bandwagon with this one: It *was* worth it.
Has it been easy? Hell, no! Has it SUCKED BALLS more than once? Hell yes! Were there times when I *did* regret doing it? Definitely. Was I/am I still kind of angry with fate that I had to go through it? You betcha. Is it lots of fun having your appearance change? No, I can't really say it is.
But.
I know I still have much more healing to go through, as well as more frustrations, and probably a few more crying jags to boot. But after only a month, I can sleep fully reclined in a bed. I can sleep without having to be propped up on pillows (which I was doing even before the surgery.) I do still wake up tired, but nothing like I used to. I dont have to go to sleep at 9pm anymore because I just can't stay awake. I don't have to take a 3 hour nap at 2 in the afternoon because otherwise I will be useless all day. I don't wake up with the CPAP hose wrapped around my neck anymore. I don't have to go through the ritual of medications and setting up the machine, and taping my mouth shut, and being woken up in the middle of the night by leaky masks. I may not be 100% fixed, but there's a freedom there that I didn't have before. At the very least, I feel less broken than everyone else just having to use that damned machine.
Husband came up to me the other morning. "I couldn't hear you breathing," he said. "I sat up in bed and actually leaned over because even before the CPAP, your breath always struggled. Now I could barely hear it!"
Was it worth it? A thousand times yes -- with the small exceptions where I am PMSing, of course.
4.5 Weeks
Wasn't that a famous movie? Except with the number 9? Rest assured I won't go into any torrid detail here, and Mickey Rourke will not be making a guest appearance in this entry (dammit.)
So here we are! Just a hint more than a month since I had my surgery! Things are continuing to go really well. I've graduated up to (mostly) soft foods with the occasional use of the baggies (some things are just better eaten through the straw,) which helps my mental state IMMEASUREABLY. I weathered that cold my daughter gave me, and seem to be none the worse for it, although it did knock some more blood out of my sinuses for a brief while. Had a few really impressive and colorful blows in there. Speaking of nose-blowing, I do still pop my ears almost every time I blow my nose; with the sinuses being somewhat traumitized during surgery, I've got the long-running symptoms of a head cold, which doc says is very normal. Ditto for the very occasional ear-infection-like stabbing pains below my ears. All normal, normal, normal.
My energy is slowly coming back, although I am still a bit draggy because I am still undershooting a bit on the liquids/caloric intake (have lost 20 lbs in 4 weeks.) Adding to the problem is that I am also tapering off of some steroid medication I was on pre-surgery (have been on it for more than a year due to previous brain tumor surgery,) which makes me feel kinda crappy. Obviously is a very speciallized issue for just me; anyone reading this for reference should not have that problem tapering off of any steroids you may have received in the hospital.
Numbness: Can't lie, butI'm not at all surprised to find out I still have plenty of numbness. But, there has been a tiny but noticeable change in the amount. My tongue still has just the slightest bit along the front edge, but is otherwise fine. On my chin, it feels like the boundary between totally normal and "Hey, who took my chin?" has shrunk by a few millimeters, with a small chance that I'm just projecting some wishfull thinking, but I don't think so. Because while I wouldn't say that I have feeling back, I'm definitely getting some sensations back. And let me just say that I'm realizing how lucky I was that I haven't been able to feel much of anything for a month. Whew! I'm definitely getting teh aches in my chin, be it from talking too much, or eating with a baby spork or what. Have even had to take ibuprofen a few times just to knock it back a bit. And when I apply any pressure to my jaw - say when I am applying new wax to the braces - it causes pain now. Not oh-god-kill-me! pain, but yes-something-is-definitely-going-through-a-healing-process sensation. My upper palette is still pretty numb, as I've discovered when brushing my teeth: I can't tell that I am. But I have faith that'll come back. Oh, and that small strip of kinda-numb that went up to my right eye has backed of noticeably as well. Again, still a hint of not-quite right, but improving.
Range of motion: getting pretty good with this one. I think between a lot of the incisions healing, some of the numbness going away, and just losing my fear over having my face split in two if I used it too much, my mouth is much more flexible. I've got much more movement pursing my lips that doing anything that requires stretching (ie: smiling) but its coming along. The left side is stronger that the right so far so I always look a bit lopsided, but at least I get to kiss my kid again. The tongue is doing great. I'd had a lot of fear about this one as I was going to have GA on top of just the jaw surgery, and so far, its been a non issue. I do occasionally get a twinge of pain at the base, but that's about it (ok, well, I get a lot more than a twinge of pain when I chomp down on my tongue with all those teeth I can't feel, but that's a different story.) I can wag my tongue from side to side around in my mouth and can actually stick it part of the way out of my mouth! (Both of those are a bit hindered by the bands I am still wearing.) Only time will tell, but I think I dodged some bullets there.
Braces: Ahh, braces, how I am tired of thee! Really, they're currently the worst part about the experience. My teeth ache all the time from them. Again, not pain enough to drive me off a cliff, but discomfort enough to really really REALLY want them out of my mouth. Making things even more intersting is the rubber band at the front of my mouth. I've got one that goes from the center of my lower jaw to the outside edge of my right front tooth. Well, there's a bit of a space between my front tooth and the #2 tooth, so that rubber band constantly slides in between, and actually sits BEHIND my front tooth. The docs are fine with it in that it ios still holding my jaw in alignment, but its presses into my gums something fierce! Sore all the time. All flossing, all the time, you might say. I'm quite over it.
But that's ok, because when I went in for my check up today, doc says I am getting my braces off next Tuesday (Dec 2nd) -- failing any catastrophic failure**, of course. So! Happy! I! Could! Cry! Must rememebr to take a few more pictures before they are Gone! For GOOD! :D :D :D
**Doc is still a bit concerned that my jaw still pops out of alignment when I sleep, and that in the mornings I have to sort of manually line everything back up. But he's pleased with progress to date and is buoyed by the fact that I *can* move my lower jaw from side to side just using my muscles already (apparently that's pretty uncommon at 4 weeks,) and said he thinks worst case I may have to go do a little PT until its no longer an issue. I think I can deal with that.
So, really, its all going well! Fingers crossed/knock on wood/burning a goat in sacrifice, it will continue to do so and soon this will all be no more than a collection of blog entries! (And by soon, I mean over the next year, probably.)
So here we are! Just a hint more than a month since I had my surgery! Things are continuing to go really well. I've graduated up to (mostly) soft foods with the occasional use of the baggies (some things are just better eaten through the straw,) which helps my mental state IMMEASUREABLY. I weathered that cold my daughter gave me, and seem to be none the worse for it, although it did knock some more blood out of my sinuses for a brief while. Had a few really impressive and colorful blows in there. Speaking of nose-blowing, I do still pop my ears almost every time I blow my nose; with the sinuses being somewhat traumitized during surgery, I've got the long-running symptoms of a head cold, which doc says is very normal. Ditto for the very occasional ear-infection-like stabbing pains below my ears. All normal, normal, normal.
My energy is slowly coming back, although I am still a bit draggy because I am still undershooting a bit on the liquids/caloric intake (have lost 20 lbs in 4 weeks.) Adding to the problem is that I am also tapering off of some steroid medication I was on pre-surgery (have been on it for more than a year due to previous brain tumor surgery,) which makes me feel kinda crappy. Obviously is a very speciallized issue for just me; anyone reading this for reference should not have that problem tapering off of any steroids you may have received in the hospital.
Numbness: Can't lie, butI'm not at all surprised to find out I still have plenty of numbness. But, there has been a tiny but noticeable change in the amount. My tongue still has just the slightest bit along the front edge, but is otherwise fine. On my chin, it feels like the boundary between totally normal and "Hey, who took my chin?" has shrunk by a few millimeters, with a small chance that I'm just projecting some wishfull thinking, but I don't think so. Because while I wouldn't say that I have feeling back, I'm definitely getting some sensations back. And let me just say that I'm realizing how lucky I was that I haven't been able to feel much of anything for a month. Whew! I'm definitely getting teh aches in my chin, be it from talking too much, or eating with a baby spork or what. Have even had to take ibuprofen a few times just to knock it back a bit. And when I apply any pressure to my jaw - say when I am applying new wax to the braces - it causes pain now. Not oh-god-kill-me! pain, but yes-something-is-definitely-going-through-a-healing-process sensation. My upper palette is still pretty numb, as I've discovered when brushing my teeth: I can't tell that I am. But I have faith that'll come back. Oh, and that small strip of kinda-numb that went up to my right eye has backed of noticeably as well. Again, still a hint of not-quite right, but improving.
Range of motion: getting pretty good with this one. I think between a lot of the incisions healing, some of the numbness going away, and just losing my fear over having my face split in two if I used it too much, my mouth is much more flexible. I've got much more movement pursing my lips that doing anything that requires stretching (ie: smiling) but its coming along. The left side is stronger that the right so far so I always look a bit lopsided, but at least I get to kiss my kid again. The tongue is doing great. I'd had a lot of fear about this one as I was going to have GA on top of just the jaw surgery, and so far, its been a non issue. I do occasionally get a twinge of pain at the base, but that's about it (ok, well, I get a lot more than a twinge of pain when I chomp down on my tongue with all those teeth I can't feel, but that's a different story.) I can wag my tongue from side to side around in my mouth and can actually stick it part of the way out of my mouth! (Both of those are a bit hindered by the bands I am still wearing.) Only time will tell, but I think I dodged some bullets there.
Braces: Ahh, braces, how I am tired of thee! Really, they're currently the worst part about the experience. My teeth ache all the time from them. Again, not pain enough to drive me off a cliff, but discomfort enough to really really REALLY want them out of my mouth. Making things even more intersting is the rubber band at the front of my mouth. I've got one that goes from the center of my lower jaw to the outside edge of my right front tooth. Well, there's a bit of a space between my front tooth and the #2 tooth, so that rubber band constantly slides in between, and actually sits BEHIND my front tooth. The docs are fine with it in that it ios still holding my jaw in alignment, but its presses into my gums something fierce! Sore all the time. All flossing, all the time, you might say. I'm quite over it.
But that's ok, because when I went in for my check up today, doc says I am getting my braces off next Tuesday (Dec 2nd) -- failing any catastrophic failure**, of course. So! Happy! I! Could! Cry! Must rememebr to take a few more pictures before they are Gone! For GOOD! :D :D :D
**Doc is still a bit concerned that my jaw still pops out of alignment when I sleep, and that in the mornings I have to sort of manually line everything back up. But he's pleased with progress to date and is buoyed by the fact that I *can* move my lower jaw from side to side just using my muscles already (apparently that's pretty uncommon at 4 weeks,) and said he thinks worst case I may have to go do a little PT until its no longer an issue. I think I can deal with that.
So, really, its all going well! Fingers crossed/knock on wood/burning a goat in sacrifice, it will continue to do so and soon this will all be no more than a collection of blog entries! (And by soon, I mean over the next year, probably.)
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Not All Rainbows and Flowers
The Monday following my surgery, I went to the doctor's office for a follow up and x-rays, and nearly passed out. I kind of crumpled to a chair in the waiting room and had to be escorted back into the office where nurses and doctors fluttered nearby and took my blood pressure. Fairly low. Apparently I'd gotten pretty dehydrated. 20 minutes in the reclining chair and two bottles of water later I was feeling better, if not slightly weak. Have been truing to stay on top of it since then.
Today I felt unsteady bending over to look at a plant in the garden, and then I got light-headed from blowing my nose. Not good. Pretty certain that means I'm good and dehydrated again. Might not be getting enough calories either. Goddamn it.
This whole surgery has been a real eye-opener into taking things for granted. Like eating and drinking. It really is a fair amount of work to stay on top of your dietary intake needs with your mouth banded shut/broken/whatever you want to call it. No really -- its work. What do we have to eat that I can actually consume? Is it liquid-y enough to go through a straw? Too hot? Too cold? Have you added the fiber? How about the protein powder? Liquid vitamins? Where are the special bags? Are all the baby spoons in the dishwasher? Crap, I'm spilling all over myself! Boy, am I tired of eating this! My jaw is aching from trying to work with the spoon. What do you mean, I'm still wearing breakfast on my face? Man, my stomach has totally shrunk; I get full so quickly.
I started this whole procedure carrying extra weight. So admittedly, losing a few pounds on the restrictive diet was not a bad thing for me. Plus, I am aware of how important nutrition is, especially when recovering from a major medical procedure, as well as the dangers of crash dieting in general. Believe me when I say I am honestly trying to do right by my body here. But I have spent the last several years battling the bulge and trying to change my eating habits, so this constant grazing for calories and 'add butter or oil for calories!' advice really goes against everything I've been trying to rewire. The nonstop eating makes me feel kind of, well...guilty!
Sigh.
Having kind of a crappy day, as you can tell. Tired. Sick. Worn down. Frustrated. Meh.
Today I felt unsteady bending over to look at a plant in the garden, and then I got light-headed from blowing my nose. Not good. Pretty certain that means I'm good and dehydrated again. Might not be getting enough calories either. Goddamn it.
This whole surgery has been a real eye-opener into taking things for granted. Like eating and drinking. It really is a fair amount of work to stay on top of your dietary intake needs with your mouth banded shut/broken/whatever you want to call it. No really -- its work. What do we have to eat that I can actually consume? Is it liquid-y enough to go through a straw? Too hot? Too cold? Have you added the fiber? How about the protein powder? Liquid vitamins? Where are the special bags? Are all the baby spoons in the dishwasher? Crap, I'm spilling all over myself! Boy, am I tired of eating this! My jaw is aching from trying to work with the spoon. What do you mean, I'm still wearing breakfast on my face? Man, my stomach has totally shrunk; I get full so quickly.
I started this whole procedure carrying extra weight. So admittedly, losing a few pounds on the restrictive diet was not a bad thing for me. Plus, I am aware of how important nutrition is, especially when recovering from a major medical procedure, as well as the dangers of crash dieting in general. Believe me when I say I am honestly trying to do right by my body here. But I have spent the last several years battling the bulge and trying to change my eating habits, so this constant grazing for calories and 'add butter or oil for calories!' advice really goes against everything I've been trying to rewire. The nonstop eating makes me feel kind of, well...guilty!
Sigh.
Having kind of a crappy day, as you can tell. Tired. Sick. Worn down. Frustrated. Meh.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Supercalifragalisticexpialidocious
That's what was spelled out on my chin and shirt by the time I finished eating my can of alphabet Spaghettios today for lunch. But boy, were they tasty -- and not soup!
Ice Packs and Your Face
I'm sure you've already seen the photographs somewhere: someone laying in bed post-sugery, their head wrapped in ace bandages and ice packs, looking not unlike a 19th century illustration for a child with the mumps, knot on the top of the head and everything. And let me be the first to reassure you that the ice actually does help. It knocks down the swelling, and definitely provides some tactile soothing to your mightily abused jaw line.
But the whole sock-full-of-crushed-ice is not without its issues. For starters, its heavy. You are probably gonna be tired, and having this awkward weight balanced off of the top of your head can be uncomfortable, not to mention might make watching crappy tv in the hospital a bit of a challenge. And hopefully you'll have a thoughtful and attentive nurse who will try to make the ice pieces as small as possible in the hospital, but the truth is you're still going to have chunks poking you on your tender face, no matter how careful you are.
Stick with the ice! You'll be glad you did! And when they send you home with that sock to fill with ice packs, take it! But do a little legwork beforehand and invest in some of those refreezeable blue gel packs. You'll be happy you did. 1) You won't wake up one morning with the front of your Bugs Bunny pajamas soaked from the slow leak of the ice bags, 2) they're flexible and will conform to your face nicely, and more importantly, 3) there's no ice cubes to jab you while you are trying to sleep/heal. Also, there are some brands out there that come with there own ace-bandage-with-a-pocket-for-the-pack-and-velcro-too; I put two of these together to get a pack for each side of my face and was able to velcro them nice and snug in place, as opposed to the knot from the sock.
You may drop about $20 on ice packs, but it'll make you more likely to use them, and really, who doesn't occasionally need an ice pack now and then? Do it. You know you want to.
But the whole sock-full-of-crushed-ice is not without its issues. For starters, its heavy. You are probably gonna be tired, and having this awkward weight balanced off of the top of your head can be uncomfortable, not to mention might make watching crappy tv in the hospital a bit of a challenge. And hopefully you'll have a thoughtful and attentive nurse who will try to make the ice pieces as small as possible in the hospital, but the truth is you're still going to have chunks poking you on your tender face, no matter how careful you are.
Stick with the ice! You'll be glad you did! And when they send you home with that sock to fill with ice packs, take it! But do a little legwork beforehand and invest in some of those refreezeable blue gel packs. You'll be happy you did. 1) You won't wake up one morning with the front of your Bugs Bunny pajamas soaked from the slow leak of the ice bags, 2) they're flexible and will conform to your face nicely, and more importantly, 3) there's no ice cubes to jab you while you are trying to sleep/heal. Also, there are some brands out there that come with there own ace-bandage-with-a-pocket-for-the-pack-and-velcro-too; I put two of these together to get a pack for each side of my face and was able to velcro them nice and snug in place, as opposed to the knot from the sock.
You may drop about $20 on ice packs, but it'll make you more likely to use them, and really, who doesn't occasionally need an ice pack now and then? Do it. You know you want to.
A Public Service Announcement
With all of my sitting around and recouperating time, I think I'm going to design a masscot and everything. "Only you can prevent constipation."
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Knock, knock, knock.
Now who could that be?
Knock, knock, knock.
Wait, are you kidding?
Knock, knock, knock.
Its finally here! I wasn't sure this day would ever come!
Knock, knock, knock.
Hang on, hang on, I'm running upstairs!
Knock, knock, knock.
Sitting! Here I go; I'm sitting!
Knock, knock, knock.
Ahhh! Finally! This is gonna make me feel so much better!
Knock, knock.
Ok, a little slow, maybe...
Knock.
Its cool, I'm patient...
(silence)
....patient...
(silence)
...patient...
(silence)
Husband, can you bring me some magazines?
(silence)
And a glass of water?
(silence)
And some stool softners?
(silence)
(30 minutes later) Ok, I'm losing feeling in my leg....
Knock.
Ooh! Ok, here we go!
(silence)
Nope, false alarm. dammit.
(silence)
(20 minutes later) There goes the other leg....
knock
Now?
(silence)
Goddammit.
(silence)
(90 minutes later) Well, ok. maybe now's not the time. Let's see if we can get a little movement the other way...
(silence)
Are you kidding me?!? You're just gonna sit there? I'm commited now? I can't even back out if I want to?!? Goddammit, I want to stand up! I'm getting gangrene in my feet from lack of blood flow!
(silence)
Gonna be that way about it, huh? Ok, I didn't want to have to do this...
(silence)
My god, I didn't even know you could *get* sideways in there! Did they slip me concrete mix at the hospital?
(silence)
Great, now I've given myself a bloody nose. If I blow out stitches in my face because of this, I'm going to be really irritated!
Knock
So you think maybe we can talk about this?
knock
....put my wallet under my tongue....
knock, knock
...flashing back to the birthing table....
knock, knock, knock
...I'm cukoo for Cocoa Puffs....
*pop*
(pant, pant) The ceiling...why am I looking at the ceiling...what day is it? (Stands up. Crumples.) Medic! I need a medic!
****************************************************************************************
Knock, knock, knock.
Now who could that be?
Knock, knock, knock.
Wait, are you kidding?
Knock, knock, knock.
Its finally here! I wasn't sure this day would ever come!
Knock, knock, knock.
Hang on, hang on, I'm running upstairs!
Knock, knock, knock.
Sitting! Here I go; I'm sitting!
Knock, knock, knock.
Ahhh! Finally! This is gonna make me feel so much better!
Knock, knock.
Ok, a little slow, maybe...
Knock.
Its cool, I'm patient...
(silence)
....patient...
(silence)
...patient...
(silence)
Husband, can you bring me some magazines?
(silence)
And a glass of water?
(silence)
And some stool softners?
(silence)
(30 minutes later) Ok, I'm losing feeling in my leg....
Knock.
Ooh! Ok, here we go!
(silence)
Nope, false alarm. dammit.
(silence)
(20 minutes later) There goes the other leg....
knock
Now?
(silence)
Goddammit.
(silence)
(90 minutes later) Well, ok. maybe now's not the time. Let's see if we can get a little movement the other way...
(silence)
Are you kidding me?!? You're just gonna sit there? I'm commited now? I can't even back out if I want to?!? Goddammit, I want to stand up! I'm getting gangrene in my feet from lack of blood flow!
(silence)
Gonna be that way about it, huh? Ok, I didn't want to have to do this...
(silence)
My god, I didn't even know you could *get* sideways in there! Did they slip me concrete mix at the hospital?
(silence)
Great, now I've given myself a bloody nose. If I blow out stitches in my face because of this, I'm going to be really irritated!
Knock
So you think maybe we can talk about this?
knock
....put my wallet under my tongue....
knock, knock
...flashing back to the birthing table....
knock, knock, knock
...I'm cukoo for Cocoa Puffs....
*pop*
(pant, pant) The ceiling...why am I looking at the ceiling...what day is it? (Stands up. Crumples.) Medic! I need a medic!
Off the Hard Stuff
Which reminds me:
I've been off the pain meds (OxyContin) for almost 5 whole days now (just shy of the three week post surgery mark for reference,) and I'm fine. Stopped taking it because I really could not stay awake, but also because I was having terrible, wake-up-screaming kind of nightmares, which is a Bad Thing on several different levels. (Not sure they were even from the meds, but wanted to try. YMMV.)
Its actually gone really well, and I've found I really didn't need it anymore. True, there is still that odd achiness from the braces, but while that is a strong sensation and definitely grabs your attention, it doesn't actually hurt, per se. Plus, I found that the OxyMumble didn't really address that sensation so much to begin with.
Now that I'm off the meds, I am awake almost all day (still sleepy bits, but I no longer have narcolepsy,) I sleep better at night, my brain feels 100% clearer, and I can take a s*** without having to have an epidural first. (Drink lots of fluids, get fiber supplements, bathe in prune juice -- it takes extra extra work to keep yourself regular while ingesting a narcotic.)
Immediately post-surgery, this stuff was great and did the trick. Initially recovering back at home this stuff was a godsend. But it does become unnecessary, and possibly even sooner than you might imagine. Looking back I almost wish I'd started cutting back a day or two sooner. I didn't realize how vaguely...unpleasant the meds made me feel when I didn't need them. Dunno how Rush Limbaugh did it.
Oh, I do occasionally take a bit of children's liquid ibuprofen these days if I'm feeling pained. Mostly its to kind of knock back the cold a bit, but it does help somewhat with the swelling and slight discomfort I still get in my face sometimes.
I've been off the pain meds (OxyContin) for almost 5 whole days now (just shy of the three week post surgery mark for reference,) and I'm fine. Stopped taking it because I really could not stay awake, but also because I was having terrible, wake-up-screaming kind of nightmares, which is a Bad Thing on several different levels. (Not sure they were even from the meds, but wanted to try. YMMV.)
Its actually gone really well, and I've found I really didn't need it anymore. True, there is still that odd achiness from the braces, but while that is a strong sensation and definitely grabs your attention, it doesn't actually hurt, per se. Plus, I found that the OxyMumble didn't really address that sensation so much to begin with.
Now that I'm off the meds, I am awake almost all day (still sleepy bits, but I no longer have narcolepsy,) I sleep better at night, my brain feels 100% clearer, and I can take a s*** without having to have an epidural first. (Drink lots of fluids, get fiber supplements, bathe in prune juice -- it takes extra extra work to keep yourself regular while ingesting a narcotic.)
Immediately post-surgery, this stuff was great and did the trick. Initially recovering back at home this stuff was a godsend. But it does become unnecessary, and possibly even sooner than you might imagine. Looking back I almost wish I'd started cutting back a day or two sooner. I didn't realize how vaguely...unpleasant the meds made me feel when I didn't need them. Dunno how Rush Limbaugh did it.
Oh, I do occasionally take a bit of children's liquid ibuprofen these days if I'm feeling pained. Mostly its to kind of knock back the cold a bit, but it does help somewhat with the swelling and slight discomfort I still get in my face sometimes.
Zip n Squeeze
Which reminds me:
If you are going to have this (or a similar surgery) done, I do suggest picking up some Zip n Squeeze bags for the purpose of eating/drinking once you get home. I personally did not think they were the be-all-end-all** of post-surgery feeding technology, but they will definitely get the job done. A few pointers when using them, though.
1) Don't microwave them. Possibly an obvious thing to say, but Husband did do this a few times, and even with short times, it will slowly start to melt some of the seams. Be warned.
2) Make sure your food is thin enough. The more liquid-y, the better.
3) ALWAYS use the extra safety clip across the top. It is suggested you use this only when putting greasy foods in the bag, but I had more than one experience of ending up wearing whatever was in the bag because the zip seal failed. Bit of insult to injury, if you know what I mean.
Personally I was really happy with the feeding syringe they sent me home with from the hospital. I didn't think it required any extra dexterity. Actually I thought it was much more efficient in its food delivery method than the bags, which I felt you had to kind of chase the food/liquids around in, or start rolling the bags up like toothpaste tubes or the like to get everything out. The only real reason I switched over was because the seal started to break down on the syringe, and suddenly the friction was too great to draw in/squeeze out whatever was in there. Meh. At the very least I'd still suggest bringing one or two home from the hospital for taking pain meds, though.
If you are going to have this (or a similar surgery) done, I do suggest picking up some Zip n Squeeze bags for the purpose of eating/drinking once you get home. I personally did not think they were the be-all-end-all** of post-surgery feeding technology, but they will definitely get the job done. A few pointers when using them, though.
1) Don't microwave them. Possibly an obvious thing to say, but Husband did do this a few times, and even with short times, it will slowly start to melt some of the seams. Be warned.
2) Make sure your food is thin enough. The more liquid-y, the better.
3) ALWAYS use the extra safety clip across the top. It is suggested you use this only when putting greasy foods in the bag, but I had more than one experience of ending up wearing whatever was in the bag because the zip seal failed. Bit of insult to injury, if you know what I mean.
Personally I was really happy with the feeding syringe they sent me home with from the hospital. I didn't think it required any extra dexterity. Actually I thought it was much more efficient in its food delivery method than the bags, which I felt you had to kind of chase the food/liquids around in, or start rolling the bags up like toothpaste tubes or the like to get everything out. The only real reason I switched over was because the seal started to break down on the syringe, and suddenly the friction was too great to draw in/squeeze out whatever was in there. Meh. At the very least I'd still suggest bringing one or two home from the hospital for taking pain meds, though.
Progress!
Since the surgery, I've been in the doc's office about 2-3x week, just to make sure I'm doing ok and that there are no issues with healing. My jaw started to drift last week and my bite was no longer lining up, so that's why they had to put the bands back in. I was a bit disheartened by this,less because of the floating jaw (the docs seemed very confident that they could fix that) but because I'd enjoyed being able to kind of open my mouth. The bands made me kind of nervous, so even though they weren't the stiffest ones the docs could have used, I sxtill lost a bit of mobility up there. Not to mention it made brushing my teeth in any fashio a bit more of a pisser as well.
However, I've definitely adjusted to having them in there and am waaay less afraid that I'll accidentally open my mouth too wide and snap all of them simultaneously and send myself into spasms of pain (I did have one snap on me, but other than a very minor sting and a surprised look, it was kind of a non-issue.
Doc has been assuring me for a while that I can eat soft foods whenever I feel up to it - mashed pootatoes, scrambled eggs, that sort of thing. Even on a good day it didn't feel like I could open my mouth terribly far, much less jam a loaded spoon in there. But yesterday I sort of hit my limit and needed to eat Real Food (tm). My caloric intake had really been dropping off as I was really having trouble consuming any more soup or other pureed food item.** Just couldn't make myself do it. Plus yesterday i just needed a strong flavor. Went to the grocery store.
Last night I had a bit of a feast. I blenderized me up some bbq chicken (delish!), got a vat of potato salad, and some chocolate pudding. Know what else I got? A baby spooon. Oh yeah, moving up in the world -- I ate with a spoon last night. Sure, I ended up wearing a bunch of my dinner, and it took me about an hour to eat, and another hour to pick a bunch of the chicken out of my bands (I chopped it instead of liquifying it,) but I did it. Oh god, that was good! Picked up a can of Pringles as well. Broke those suckers into small pieces and just kind of let them dissolve on my tongue. Mmmm, salty, slightly soggy/crunchy goodness (I daresay I mightve had some involuntary up and down jaw motion with some of those damp chips.) And to top the whole baccnalia off, I drank my water out of a glass. Get out of town, you say, and I say, no! I drank two whole glasses of water without dousing myself or shorting out my loaner laptop! Hallelujia! She has been saved! Now keep in mind that I still can't feel anything on my lower lip or chin, so I have to sort of reach up and check with my hand to make sure I'm actaully making contact, and I'm sure that wackiness will ensue at some point in the future, but still -- progress!
Its times like these that I have a LOT of gratitude that my mouth isn't completely banded shut like I expected it to be. I think I would've gone nuts and tried to stab myself to death with the Zip n Squeeze straw by now.
** For some reason, I have never taken to smoothies on this dietary adventure. I had been cutting back on dairy prior to the surgery to help keep the mucous down, and seem to never have gotten fully back on the wagon. Also, I have craved warm food about 10x more than room temperature or cold food since the surgery.
However, I've definitely adjusted to having them in there and am waaay less afraid that I'll accidentally open my mouth too wide and snap all of them simultaneously and send myself into spasms of pain (I did have one snap on me, but other than a very minor sting and a surprised look, it was kind of a non-issue.
Doc has been assuring me for a while that I can eat soft foods whenever I feel up to it - mashed pootatoes, scrambled eggs, that sort of thing. Even on a good day it didn't feel like I could open my mouth terribly far, much less jam a loaded spoon in there. But yesterday I sort of hit my limit and needed to eat Real Food (tm). My caloric intake had really been dropping off as I was really having trouble consuming any more soup or other pureed food item.** Just couldn't make myself do it. Plus yesterday i just needed a strong flavor. Went to the grocery store.
Last night I had a bit of a feast. I blenderized me up some bbq chicken (delish!), got a vat of potato salad, and some chocolate pudding. Know what else I got? A baby spooon. Oh yeah, moving up in the world -- I ate with a spoon last night. Sure, I ended up wearing a bunch of my dinner, and it took me about an hour to eat, and another hour to pick a bunch of the chicken out of my bands (I chopped it instead of liquifying it,) but I did it. Oh god, that was good! Picked up a can of Pringles as well. Broke those suckers into small pieces and just kind of let them dissolve on my tongue. Mmmm, salty, slightly soggy/crunchy goodness (I daresay I mightve had some involuntary up and down jaw motion with some of those damp chips.) And to top the whole baccnalia off, I drank my water out of a glass. Get out of town, you say, and I say, no! I drank two whole glasses of water without dousing myself or shorting out my loaner laptop! Hallelujia! She has been saved! Now keep in mind that I still can't feel anything on my lower lip or chin, so I have to sort of reach up and check with my hand to make sure I'm actaully making contact, and I'm sure that wackiness will ensue at some point in the future, but still -- progress!
Its times like these that I have a LOT of gratitude that my mouth isn't completely banded shut like I expected it to be. I think I would've gone nuts and tried to stab myself to death with the Zip n Squeeze straw by now.
** For some reason, I have never taken to smoothies on this dietary adventure. I had been cutting back on dairy prior to the surgery to help keep the mucous down, and seem to never have gotten fully back on the wagon. Also, I have craved warm food about 10x more than room temperature or cold food since the surgery.
Friday, November 14, 2008
Photos
Yes, I have been taking photos, but as most of my computer time ison a loaner laptop that I'm not too familiar with, I've (obviously) not been posting pix here on my blog. However, I have been compiling them in a set on my Flickr account. I'll just keep adding to them as I get more, so feel free to check back in. And maybe someday I'll actually get some pictures loaded directly onto my blog. Gasp!
Kill Me Now
Ok, I wasn't lying about having clear nasal passages, but I sure as hell did jinx myself. I seem to have caught a rockin' cold from my four year old, and I am miserable. I had a sneeze or two earlier this week - no big deal once you figure out the science of not moving your lips and jaws while you do it - but it wasn't until yesterday that the rest of it kicked in. Sore throat, complete congestion, dry lips, and swollen tonsils. Plus I feel achey all over, and kind of headachey too. Meh! Just as I was composing another entry about how surprisingly good I feel for a mere 2.5 weeks post surgery!
If this is going to run its course anything like what my daughter had, I'll probably be pretty unhappy for about 3-4 days, and then will perk up with just residual coughing and congestion. I guess it could be worse; historically, the tonsils swelling up was almost guaranteed trouble breathing as my throat was so narrow. Not anymore! Yay surgery!! :D Nor did I catch the barfing flu, so I've got that going for me.
I do do much better when I am injured vs. sick though. When I am sick, I shut down. When I am injured, I just get impatient. Looks like I'm back to really sitting on my ass for a fedw days.
If this is going to run its course anything like what my daughter had, I'll probably be pretty unhappy for about 3-4 days, and then will perk up with just residual coughing and congestion. I guess it could be worse; historically, the tonsils swelling up was almost guaranteed trouble breathing as my throat was so narrow. Not anymore! Yay surgery!! :D Nor did I catch the barfing flu, so I've got that going for me.
I do do much better when I am injured vs. sick though. When I am sick, I shut down. When I am injured, I just get impatient. Looks like I'm back to really sitting on my ass for a fedw days.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
These Pipes are Clean!
I can't believe how open my sinuses and the like are post surgery (2.5 weeeks.) Immediately after the surgery I was very open, but by the second night the expected congesion/bloody grossness kicked in (they do cut into your sinuses, after all.) At the hospital I was given saline spray and a spray nasal decongestant -- hell, I even used a nasal steroid that I'd been prescribed pre-surgery (after asking my doctor first) to help open everything up. There was some limited sucess, but mostly I did a lot of snorking and light coughing and spitting up of bloody mucus that was being slurped around.
When I got home from the hospital I tried to keep up with the regimen - when I was awake, that is - to try and clear all that stuff out. I found myself breathing a lot throug hmy mouth, which was just drying all of that out. Besides, I felt even less attractive *having* to walk around with my mouth hanging open on top of all the regular swelling and whatnot. Tried a netti pot during a few showers; that was probably the most helpful thing I did that whole time. Not surprisingly the surgery changed the shape of the inside of my nose a well just by proximity to all the real action, and I found that the saline/netti pot/whathaveyou shot around much easier. Sligtly unnerving the first few times, to tell you the truth. But effective. To a point.
Well, I made it all the was to that first Sunday night before I had my first real, full-blown breakdown about the surgery. For an hour I sobbed all over Husband, oh-poor-me and it-isn't-fair, blah, blah, blah. Must've gone through about half a box of kleenex, what with all the snot dripping onto my sensationless chin. Very colorful stuff, too. But you know what? It totally did the trick. Since then, for the last week and a half, I've had almost no nose congestion. Having that insane bawling session really emptied my sinuses. No more random minor bloody noses, either. I've almost entirely stopped using saline spray or decongestant, and haven't had to go anywhere near the steroids. Its been pretty cool!
I know that my turbinades (sp?) are still reallyhuge, and I may need surgery of some sort to reduce their size at some point in the future. But for right now, I'm really enjoying just being able to breathe.
When I got home from the hospital I tried to keep up with the regimen - when I was awake, that is - to try and clear all that stuff out. I found myself breathing a lot throug hmy mouth, which was just drying all of that out. Besides, I felt even less attractive *having* to walk around with my mouth hanging open on top of all the regular swelling and whatnot. Tried a netti pot during a few showers; that was probably the most helpful thing I did that whole time. Not surprisingly the surgery changed the shape of the inside of my nose a well just by proximity to all the real action, and I found that the saline/netti pot/whathaveyou shot around much easier. Sligtly unnerving the first few times, to tell you the truth. But effective. To a point.
Well, I made it all the was to that first Sunday night before I had my first real, full-blown breakdown about the surgery. For an hour I sobbed all over Husband, oh-poor-me and it-isn't-fair, blah, blah, blah. Must've gone through about half a box of kleenex, what with all the snot dripping onto my sensationless chin. Very colorful stuff, too. But you know what? It totally did the trick. Since then, for the last week and a half, I've had almost no nose congestion. Having that insane bawling session really emptied my sinuses. No more random minor bloody noses, either. I've almost entirely stopped using saline spray or decongestant, and haven't had to go anywhere near the steroids. Its been pretty cool!
I know that my turbinades (sp?) are still reallyhuge, and I may need surgery of some sort to reduce their size at some point in the future. But for right now, I'm really enjoying just being able to breathe.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
24 Hours
Without pain meds. Not sure if I'm being smart or not. Still have the jaw throbbies really bad, but its not really pain. Slept pretty good last night -- no freaky nightmares making me wake up in the middle of the night yelling. Also woke up bright and early at 830 this morning, without having to swim through groggy fog, only to pass back out again. Some sort of connection? Will have to wait and see.
Did sneeze this morning. Pardon me for one moment....
OWW OWW FUCK OWW OH MY GOD OWW OWW FUCK OWW GODDAMMIT OWW OWW!
Will not be giving up my bottle of OxyMoron any time soon.
Did sneeze this morning. Pardon me for one moment....
OWW OWW FUCK OWW OH MY GOD OWW OWW FUCK OWW GODDAMMIT OWW OWW!
Will not be giving up my bottle of OxyMoron any time soon.
Monday, November 10, 2008
Oh and....
I think the first time I floss my teeth post hardware, I will have an orgasm. Note to self: do not floss at doctor's office.
Food, Food, FOOD, OHMYGODGETOUTOFMYWAY!
Ok, I'm officially tired of soup and smoothies. Mark your calendars. It will be a new national holiday.
The first week or so weren't too bad: mostly my mouth hurt so bad that the idea of putting anything in there other than the smooth, creamy texture of either warm soup or a cool smoothie was wildly unappetizing and unpleasant. Besides, I like veggies and soups and hey I'm eating healthy foods. This doesn't seem so bad at all.
Ahem.
I think I'll be starting a new thread of blog entries here. They will be called "What I Wanted; What I Got". Maybe you can see where this is going. Let me give you an example.
Tonight:
What I Wanted: a foccacia sandwich with fresh mozarella, basil and tomatoes, with artichoke hearts and basalmic vinegar.
What I Got: soup.
Seriously, I am going to try and lose as much weight as I can while recovering, so that I can eat myself into a stupor when this is all done, and still retain my girlish figure (coquettish giggle.) The creativity has started. I've already mentioned the pizza and cookie experiments. When my bands were off I'd break off small bits of tasty food - smoked salmon! bacon! - and work them past my teeth. Then all I had to do was swallow them whole. This was often accompanied by shaking my head around and trying to knock the food into place from the outside. Two words: choking hazard. Two more words: looks ridiculous. The M&Ms worked quite well, however, as did the raspberry sorbet cut with a little bit of red wine to make it less thick for the straw. Bliss!
Yesterday in desperation I jammed some cornbread into my now-banded mouth just to have texture. (Had there been spackled plaster lying about I might've given that a whirl too.) Cornbread is a Bad Choice in that it breaks apart like a multiple warhead missle once in your mouth, and then you have to spend the rest of the meal trying to flush it out with your bag o' water, which is even less sexy that having to eat out of a bag while everyone else uses, say, a plate and a... fork and...oh heavens! Their teeth.
I have decreed though, that while I appreciate folks bringing over food, they are no longer allowed to bring soup. Soup? We got soup. Bought some stock in Campbell's too right away. (Oooh, no pun intended!) What I realized was that I needed to see other kinds of foods besides soup, so that I could hold onto the dream that someday I'd be eating something besides soup. That I hadn't enteretd some alternate soup universe where nothing but soup existed. Yes, I will mumble out cracks about how you are being mean by eating Real Food (tm) in front of me, but do not bring me soup! Seriously!
Wow, I suddenly have the most overwhelming urge to claw all that hardware right out of my mouth right now. So...hungry....
The first week or so weren't too bad: mostly my mouth hurt so bad that the idea of putting anything in there other than the smooth, creamy texture of either warm soup or a cool smoothie was wildly unappetizing and unpleasant. Besides, I like veggies and soups and hey I'm eating healthy foods. This doesn't seem so bad at all.
Ahem.
I think I'll be starting a new thread of blog entries here. They will be called "What I Wanted; What I Got". Maybe you can see where this is going. Let me give you an example.
Tonight:
What I Wanted: a foccacia sandwich with fresh mozarella, basil and tomatoes, with artichoke hearts and basalmic vinegar.
What I Got: soup.
Seriously, I am going to try and lose as much weight as I can while recovering, so that I can eat myself into a stupor when this is all done, and still retain my girlish figure (coquettish giggle.) The creativity has started. I've already mentioned the pizza and cookie experiments. When my bands were off I'd break off small bits of tasty food - smoked salmon! bacon! - and work them past my teeth. Then all I had to do was swallow them whole. This was often accompanied by shaking my head around and trying to knock the food into place from the outside. Two words: choking hazard. Two more words: looks ridiculous. The M&Ms worked quite well, however, as did the raspberry sorbet cut with a little bit of red wine to make it less thick for the straw. Bliss!
Yesterday in desperation I jammed some cornbread into my now-banded mouth just to have texture. (Had there been spackled plaster lying about I might've given that a whirl too.) Cornbread is a Bad Choice in that it breaks apart like a multiple warhead missle once in your mouth, and then you have to spend the rest of the meal trying to flush it out with your bag o' water, which is even less sexy that having to eat out of a bag while everyone else uses, say, a plate and a... fork and...oh heavens! Their teeth.
I have decreed though, that while I appreciate folks bringing over food, they are no longer allowed to bring soup. Soup? We got soup. Bought some stock in Campbell's too right away. (Oooh, no pun intended!) What I realized was that I needed to see other kinds of foods besides soup, so that I could hold onto the dream that someday I'd be eating something besides soup. That I hadn't enteretd some alternate soup universe where nothing but soup existed. Yes, I will mumble out cracks about how you are being mean by eating Real Food (tm) in front of me, but do not bring me soup! Seriously!
Wow, I suddenly have the most overwhelming urge to claw all that hardware right out of my mouth right now. So...hungry....
Good Source for Soup Recipes
Try EatingWell.com, and enter 'soup blender' in the search engine. Tonight we had the apple/parsnip/chicken stew' recipe (with a little extra blending) and it was quite good. Y'know, still soup, but tasty.
A Good Idea Pays Off
I had a thousand and one things to do before the surgery. So of course what I spent my time on was stuff like making sure I'd dropped off my film, and cleaning the carpets and surfing the web. But there was one thng I'm glad I spent the time on. I grabbed a stack of Mags' books and spent a few hours one day reading them all into Husband's digital voice recorder (geek.) That way after teh surgery I could still sit Mags on my lap, we could listen to the recordings together, and we could still effectively have book time every night, just like normal.
I got about 20 books done - not quite as many as I'd hoped - and never did get them uploaded to the computer to be burned to disks. I never did get the stickers on the book spines so Mags would know which books I had recorded. The loaner boom box I got must've been circe 1990; it was nearly the size of a child's riding toy. The new recliner was a bit of a squeeze for anything more than me and my pillow. And sometime between me going to the hospital and returning, the voice recorder got lost.
But the other day, after nearly two weeks, the recorder turned up. My kid and I figured out which books were recorded, even without the stickers. The recliner ended up being big enough for the both of us. Mags held the recorder as I held her and together we listened to a handful of her favorite stories.
(happy sigh)
I got about 20 books done - not quite as many as I'd hoped - and never did get them uploaded to the computer to be burned to disks. I never did get the stickers on the book spines so Mags would know which books I had recorded. The loaner boom box I got must've been circe 1990; it was nearly the size of a child's riding toy. The new recliner was a bit of a squeeze for anything more than me and my pillow. And sometime between me going to the hospital and returning, the voice recorder got lost.
But the other day, after nearly two weeks, the recorder turned up. My kid and I figured out which books were recorded, even without the stickers. The recliner ended up being big enough for the both of us. Mags held the recorder as I held her and together we listened to a handful of her favorite stories.
(happy sigh)
Yawns - Both Technicolor and Not
Story #1: Not
So I'm still sleepy a lot blah blah sleep all the time blah blah never awake blah blah. I'm starting to think the OxyMoron they've got me taking is doing more harm than good in the sleep department. Been having crazy dreams, and nightmares too. Plus this chair is not exactly designed for sleeping in -- at least not for a week and a half straight. Anyhow, I've found myself yawning a lot these past few days. And subsequently, in a lot of pain from yawning. No way is my jaw going to open into a full blown yawn, nor are my lips ready to be stretched over said jaws.
So for the forseable future, I will be continuing to perfect my patented "Stifle Yawn". when you feel a yawn coming on, fight it. I know the urge to let your mouth go as far as you can is very tempting and would feel oh-so-satisfying (really, they've taken away all food with texture, leave me something!) but trust me when I tell you to fight it. Your jaw will tremble, but if you really open it, you'll be met with some really incredible pain and your yawn wiull be cut short anyhow, so don;t even bother. Next, direct all of that air out of your nostrils. True, they're not really made to accomidate that volume of air that quickly, but it ain't gonna come out your mouth. Flare those nostrils! Flare! Flare, I say!
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Story #2: Technicolor
"So that was Husband on the phone."
"Mmpff."
"He says Mags just threw up at their play date and he's going to bring her home."
"Mmpff?!?"
"Unless you think he should take her over to Joj's house; he doesn't want you to catch this."
"Mmpff......."
What to do? Four days out of the hospital. True, no bands right now, but I sure as shit don't want to be throwing up with an effectively broken jaw. But Joj can't really afford to catch it either, and well, I don't want to have to shun my little girl after having been gone nearly a week and when she's feeling poorly. I grabbed the whiteboard. Tell him to bring her home.
I hope I'm not going to regret letting Mags share my straw yesterday.....
There's a noise. I look around the black living room, but it doesn't seem to be coming from nearby. There it is again. From upstairs. Retching. I feel my way down the familiar dark hallway and up the stairs to the bathroom. Must get to daughter. Except its not.
(groaning)
"Mmpff?"
"Oh, I'm sorry I woke you." Its my mother in law, losing what sounds like her whole weeks worth of meals into the toilet.
"Mmpff mmpff?" Can I get you anything?
"No, I'll be fine. Just need to get it out of my system is all..."
Poor Husband. He went from having to help with one mostly sleeping patient to three females all laid up. Oh, and his computer totally dying in the night. And a double fender bender while driving me to the doctor's the following morning. Poor Husband.
Now where's my soup?
So I'm still sleepy a lot blah blah sleep all the time blah blah never awake blah blah. I'm starting to think the OxyMoron they've got me taking is doing more harm than good in the sleep department. Been having crazy dreams, and nightmares too. Plus this chair is not exactly designed for sleeping in -- at least not for a week and a half straight. Anyhow, I've found myself yawning a lot these past few days. And subsequently, in a lot of pain from yawning. No way is my jaw going to open into a full blown yawn, nor are my lips ready to be stretched over said jaws.
So for the forseable future, I will be continuing to perfect my patented "Stifle Yawn". when you feel a yawn coming on, fight it. I know the urge to let your mouth go as far as you can is very tempting and would feel oh-so-satisfying (really, they've taken away all food with texture, leave me something!) but trust me when I tell you to fight it. Your jaw will tremble, but if you really open it, you'll be met with some really incredible pain and your yawn wiull be cut short anyhow, so don;t even bother. Next, direct all of that air out of your nostrils. True, they're not really made to accomidate that volume of air that quickly, but it ain't gonna come out your mouth. Flare those nostrils! Flare! Flare, I say!
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Story #2: Technicolor
"So that was Husband on the phone."
"Mmpff."
"He says Mags just threw up at their play date and he's going to bring her home."
"Mmpff?!?"
"Unless you think he should take her over to Joj's house; he doesn't want you to catch this."
"Mmpff......."
What to do? Four days out of the hospital. True, no bands right now, but I sure as shit don't want to be throwing up with an effectively broken jaw. But Joj can't really afford to catch it either, and well, I don't want to have to shun my little girl after having been gone nearly a week and when she's feeling poorly. I grabbed the whiteboard. Tell him to bring her home.
I hope I'm not going to regret letting Mags share my straw yesterday.....
There's a noise. I look around the black living room, but it doesn't seem to be coming from nearby. There it is again. From upstairs. Retching. I feel my way down the familiar dark hallway and up the stairs to the bathroom. Must get to daughter. Except its not.
(groaning)
"Mmpff?"
"Oh, I'm sorry I woke you." Its my mother in law, losing what sounds like her whole weeks worth of meals into the toilet.
"Mmpff mmpff?" Can I get you anything?
"No, I'll be fine. Just need to get it out of my system is all..."
Poor Husband. He went from having to help with one mostly sleeping patient to three females all laid up. Oh, and his computer totally dying in the night. And a double fender bender while driving me to the doctor's the following morning. Poor Husband.
Now where's my soup?
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